Insightful Life

from clicking pictures together, from waiting for each other, from smiling after seeing each other to finally ignoring each other more than any one else… today again I went on a walk a long walk actually I was looking at the trees the sky the beauty of the universe everything seems so beautiful and it gets way prettier when you walk with your best friend I had my smriti the one I never fought with, the one who never misunderstood me, who never felt that I ever gave her less importance in my life this is the one bond you love having the one bond everyone around me understands. We were discussing how we are getting emotion less when people hurt your feelings and breaks your heart quite often you do get emotionless! For me I m used to this now smriti is also facing this. Sometimes people start giving importance to people who makes fun of them, who uses them and those who think they are fools. I prefer being away and well sometimes we better! I had enough lessons on thi...

Another evening I spent with her only with her!! She looked at me and smiled and I too glanced back at her. I didn’t intend to cry but she knew the feeling I had behind everything when I finally said it I conveyed my thoughts that now even if god came on earth to ask me out I m going to say a big no or I will straight block now no conversations needed now! Because I m enough broken enough hurt she replied one day there will a guy who will fall for you and your looks and your body wont be the reason behind it your soul your personality will be the main cause I didn’t smile this time I just listened to her and I myself confessed to me that I wont fall for anyone now I wont look for anyone now I wont look at people that way ‘cause you know what all these things ain’t important anymore more important is the bond I have with Sammy and smriti I want to work on this issue I want to make it unbreakable unimaginable. I love Sammy a lot she understands me very well I understand her very w...

Holding on to destiny! still remember how I felt when he left me by saying now I have mine own story. Whenever I try to explain my problem my pain my sorrow to others they behave like I am doing this for no reason I am feeling bad for no reason well am I really?? Some understand the sorrow many doesn’t they don’t even think that those who left where the main reason why I found the one I have right now. My story can only be understood by those who themselves lived in those moments that struggle that life to whom I no longer belong. That one smiled crashed the worlds and that one leave me now broke the hearts! It was like thanks for being with me when I had no one else but now since I have found someone who may leave and don’t forget to not get upset with it ‘cause you never had any right on me neither you have any! So leave me for ever don’t look back I wont care for you even for once all you need is to leave me forever! These are the unspoken words but the ones spelled out lou...

birthday gift story! Everything started when I got to know his bday is on 16 th of Dec. of course I was supposed to give him something as a gift so our struggle of what to give started there! When I say our I refer to smriti, Sammy, sumit , Deepak, sakshi didi and animesh as well yeah!!! Firstly I had to decide what to give I was thinking about 60 rupee chocolate well he is damn good so he wouldn’t have mind that yet my friends!! So they figured out from their people “source” they call them about what to give so from card to it changed to bracelet when he himself refused to have cards and chocolates both! I asked animesh what to gift a guy he suggested some stuff too well didn’t knew what was written on our story back then actually!! Lol It was the great day of dec it was 13 th dec Thursday damnn!! Thursday again!! Umm.. I will narrate my another story too one day 😉 So I and Sammy went to market after school and the actual epic story started there only… we went to one...

Confused feelings So I have learnt another skill lately from three different people first my cousin then my friend and last a you tube video names this isn’t love by jay Shetty. The summary was if you have true feelings then you wont leave even if that person asks you to! Tough right ?! well I wont be tough it will be joyful if you have true feelings for someone and are especially if you are as shameless as me! Lol For some people we want to “use” them and for some people we want to see them grow stronger and wiser than you met them. That’s called true love this doesn’t mean that sort of love its also and mainly about friendship and other relationships! The one we have with our elders and teachers … I usually get upset over small stuff but only for someone and not the other well its about I want to let him be the way he is and I want to see the other one each day wanna know how is he and wanna wake up with every morning in my future well it isnt possible umm I believe in destin...

hey there!! so the story is all about how and why we are the way we are today listening to music especially when i feel sad #chainsmokers are best when it comes to inspiration and then love is about #hasley songs and hima and i is also great friends and friends i have a lot of them but i have only few real friends the real ones understands my every situations deeply. friends hold you when your own family leaves you and i have true friends to be very honest and when i was walking on the ground floor corridor my smriti said isnt that the point from where he waved at you for the first time i replied yeah life has changed a lot now and this building has a lot of stories living inside it. living memories of hatred love and friendship and so much more live in my Campus School Pantnagar . all the things going on behind the buidling, washroom drama skipping classes together everything made us bond strong really strong!! with friends only teachers hate that but im happy i have my Sammy my...

hey there!! here comes my fav topic and thats #people well by people i usually mean my friends 'cause i dont consider others and i shouldnt 'cause otherwise i will be sad and nothing. so i feel really good sometimes when he says he wont leave me but this reminds me of how shambhavi promised me to be with me forever but left me in not even in the middle for such a small reason i still somewhere somewhat really miss my shambhavi because when i love someone for once  i love them for ever ... this is true in every case and my bhaii a lot of things are going on still i hold on to people and things im holding on to my cactii and my holding on to "him" as well. i felt today like you have promised someone that you wont let me feel lonely and true you didnt! my memories are my treasure and now whenever i feel sad i remind myself of the people i have in my life 'cause they are unique and are the best of them all deepak,sumit,animesh,vipul,smriti and sakshi didi all a...

hey there!! sometimes staying isnt a good idea sometimes we should move on,we should leave what we have and let it be   its hurts right?! well i get hurt too when people say stuff but i still trust you so much and didnt say a word 'cause i dont owe you anymore i should have known this before but all the time i spend with you makes me fall for you which isnt the right thing for now... you have important stuff to do and i shall let you go but somewhere somehow you do mean a lot to me. they left me when they found new friends you held my hand in every situation and i owe you a lot thats why i cant even think of leaving you but i think you should leave me 'cause i will ask for more and i know you aint more than a friend anymore. a girl has a lot of secrets they keep them within herself she doesnt say a word but they keep on whining about stuff deep inside. every reaction has a long story and every silence hides a lot noise within it. i think i should forget everyone and may...

hey there!! being happy is an art! i understood this today morning only sometimes you need to fool yourself to be happy or just understand the hidden truth!! they leave you because they know you will get really attached to them if we they wait until the last moment... i respect that i have someone this good in my life im a really fortunate person. i have my smriti, deepak, sumit, mukesh, sakshi didi and vipul. they are my besty and they make my life beautiful most beautiful to be very honest. sometimes moving on is the only option there's one sentence will brings both smile and tears into my eyes and that is                   "this time will pass away" i love all the people i have in my life and i know under few days they will leave me. yet im learning to be strong and to be alone. yeah he left me with thousand colors i will keep  him in my heart forever and always... he says he isnt a good person but he doesnt understand wh...

hey there!!  firstly let me tell you i do not believe in commiting suicide neither i would prefer this to others have you ever searched on Google how to commit suicide?? well you will get lots of helplines numbers to help you in changing your mind and console you. when i was in 3rd grade i tried to kill myself because i was and somewhat still am dumb i thought  couldnt live anymore. all the students used to make fun of me nobody really talked to me. they ignored me but Jyoti didnt!! she was kinda smart and always stayed with me. i dunno whether i couldnt study or i was just procrastinating through out those years but everyone left me behind 'cause of this. once my class teacher challenged me that i  wont even be able to crack campus's admission test . that day i decided to leave everything behind and move on in my life to study hard and improve myself. i took the admission test and i barely passed .the principal said i may not be able to pass in 6th grade but he gav...

hey there!!    last night i was lying on my bed and thinking about my childhood. all the memories belong to one main part of my life and that is watching cartoon well i have spent my first 10 years of life watching tv and in that also cartoons all the time. i didnt study much i just spent or i better say wasted it watching cartoons. from tom and jerry to shinchan and from doraemon to kiteretsu i watched them all😊. its not about the cartoons mainly its about the easy life we all have when we are young but as we grow old day by day things get tough for us. people start expecting things from us they want to see us more strong more serious more like themselves and not the way we are. and thats the major problem! they want us to be like them instead letting us develop our own personality... we will always look at the world the way we do the rest of the world will look at us the way it does when i say nothing will ever change well i mean it! i dont know about you but i re...

hey there!! i had no idea about what to write but i promised i will. actually whenever i run out of ideas i start talking about my past so here comes another post on my first friend Jyoti Pandey .       i was with her from the day i started going to school. she was my first and only friend till 5th grade. she was more of a sister to me, she understood me, loved me like nobody else and was my besty well one thing she is still all of this!!! i dont get to meet her but this doesnt mean why heart doesnt beat for her anymore... im like this since forever i keep on whining over small stuff and she was the one who was strong and she used to take care of me like a baby;) she lost her mother due to some psychiatric disorder this was the reason why i want to help people and the reason why i feel the pain because her mother or mine or someone else's mothers are same they love their children passionately and care for them regardless of everything. she was my friend when i ...