if love can fade, so can pain

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 heylooo everyone!! i hope you guys are doing good in life wellll i am sorry for being so irregular :X


if love can fade, so can pain

i was scrolling down my YT feed and there was a video captioned over moving on basically we all know that staying away from all this can make us strong.. let me share a small secret of mine here today 
   i was very young when i was addicted to television but it was not just* the box  of magical screen but it gave companionship to me.. after years of watching tv i was pretty much spoiled yet the time came when i was supposed to decide whether i want to be a nobody or somebody and at that moment i chose to stand for myself. i was a nobody even at that time but the desire of being somebody kept me going... i wanted to be someone i would desire i never wanted to be loved by anybody i was there alone when i needed someone to talk to so why would i care if someone else praises me when i smile so beautiful? they would call me heartless or stubborn or just a bitch or a slut whenever they feel like whatever they feel like but they cant make me feel the way they feel for themselves.. they can take away my friends, my  family, my books and my paper pen but they can not take away me from myself! 
   there was a time when i again wanted to end my life when i thought they would be ending my family in a way or so.. forgetting there was still a way to continue the life i left on command of tears. they can take away all i have but this wont make them win.. only i have the option to choose whether i want to lose or win and i always chose to win!
  everything may look ugly from a distance but it is not so.. i dont and i wont mind living alone in a busy buzzing city and doing my job and being able to help many others as much as i can.. if a life like that doesnt 











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