Growing up can't be easy ??!!
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As we all know along with our age grows out responsibilities and those responsibilities bring more tension both in academic life and in personal life sometimes we start acting like the people we miss yeah I'm acting that way as well! It's just sometimes we need some space some time alone to bring back the dead soul inside us which is tired of every single thing happening around sometimes people take us for granted they think they can act the way they want and everything will be fine when they want but the one thing they need to know is nothing will ever be the way they want and in ones life their circumstances need to be in their control and are majorly just the reflection of their past for my life I have dunno spent dunno wasted but definitely learnt something really important after my half year of 10th grade earlier I was all into memorizing science acing math and achieving excellence in sst after that I ended up in planning plotting wasting time in things we at that moment thought had potential and shall pay attention now they all even people turned out to be just the way they were and just the way they are no comments on that my life got complicated today when I was walking with my smriti we realized how much time and energy we wasted on people who now call me fool "bewakoof" yeah they think it's worth saying they dunno anything I'm on the other hand just done with everyone just done with feeling angry well yeah I never get angry 'cause I know there's nobody to console me anyways I'm just looking to be me and happily me deep inside if I can but practically it's tough I'm just avoiding people if you hurt me then no problem I'm no longer strong enough to fight back anyways I'm just done now I'm all focussed on myself trying to see how far can I go how far can I reach how much pain I can handle in my life and I'm dealting with it with some sort of ease may be my soul is now used to it may be I'm missing the old you the one person without whom everything seems incomplete but if that is true then fine I'm incomplete 'cause not everyone can complete my empty life it's just some people whose text make us feel high it's just few whose text matter and it's only one person whose last seen matters the most and I very certainly can't see it anymore I miss the old you I'm still the person you loved I was same I'm same it's just you who stopped seeing the real me and I'm happy that you are happy I really am but I do laugh more than getting jealous when you say you are committed coz you were with me as well 😂 and I know where we ended up 😂 so no need to further explain but yeah my only reason to come online isn't there anymore and everyone reading this there's always some spark in the eyes of those we love the spark if we truly love or loved will always will be visible in their eyes I never crushed on my ex but I definitely loved or love him may be more I love his presence coz somewhere I'm lonely more than anyone else more than relationship companionship is and was needed and still is I'm getting too personal so need to end it here 😅
As we all know along with our age grows out responsibilities and those responsibilities bring more tension both in academic life and in personal life sometimes we start acting like the people we miss yeah I'm acting that way as well! It's just sometimes we need some space some time alone to bring back the dead soul inside us which is tired of every single thing happening around sometimes people take us for granted they think they can act the way they want and everything will be fine when they want but the one thing they need to know is nothing will ever be the way they want and in ones life their circumstances need to be in their control and are majorly just the reflection of their past for my life I have dunno spent dunno wasted but definitely learnt something really important after my half year of 10th grade earlier I was all into memorizing science acing math and achieving excellence in sst after that I ended up in planning plotting wasting time in things we at that moment thought had potential and shall pay attention now they all even people turned out to be just the way they were and just the way they are no comments on that my life got complicated today when I was walking with my smriti we realized how much time and energy we wasted on people who now call me fool "bewakoof" yeah they think it's worth saying they dunno anything I'm on the other hand just done with everyone just done with feeling angry well yeah I never get angry 'cause I know there's nobody to console me anyways I'm just looking to be me and happily me deep inside if I can but practically it's tough I'm just avoiding people if you hurt me then no problem I'm no longer strong enough to fight back anyways I'm just done now I'm all focussed on myself trying to see how far can I go how far can I reach how much pain I can handle in my life and I'm dealting with it with some sort of ease may be my soul is now used to it may be I'm missing the old you the one person without whom everything seems incomplete but if that is true then fine I'm incomplete 'cause not everyone can complete my empty life it's just some people whose text make us feel high it's just few whose text matter and it's only one person whose last seen matters the most and I very certainly can't see it anymore I miss the old you I'm still the person you loved I was same I'm same it's just you who stopped seeing the real me and I'm happy that you are happy I really am but I do laugh more than getting jealous when you say you are committed coz you were with me as well 😂 and I know where we ended up 😂 so no need to further explain but yeah my only reason to come online isn't there anymore and everyone reading this there's always some spark in the eyes of those we love the spark if we truly love or loved will always will be visible in their eyes I never crushed on my ex but I definitely loved or love him may be more I love his presence coz somewhere I'm lonely more than anyone else more than relationship companionship is and was needed and still is I'm getting too personal so need to end it here 😅
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